on the sizzling passion that some of us have left behind

it's a friday night, after the first day of actual classes at school, and needless to say, i am VERY TIRED.

but, even as i am seriously running on reserves, i had to take some time to blog about what's going on through my head at the moment. i've been bad, i know. i've had an entire summer to do some productive blogging and planning about how to move my dreams forward, but i have indulged in the guilty pleasures of doing pretty much nothing and obsessive wedding planning.

but i've changed. i'm a changed woman now. i've decided to get my ass back on this blog to talk about something that's really close to heart for me. it's about changing the world.

yeah, i know. you read this shit all the time. i'm gonna make a difference! be the change you want to see in the world! yaddy yaddy yadda! but no, seriously. for once in my life, i am taking actual steps to start realizing my dream.

this year, i am officially starting my own team at school, very uncreatively-termed "Social Awareness Enhancement Team" *applause please*. it doesn't sound very fancy, and in fact, could be very well misunderstood as one of those, meet every month and talk about current events clubs, but i'm not having any of that. i'm determined to make this thing socially mobile, provoking awareness from all corners of the school, and eventually, of Hong Kong. i feel like often times, we all feel this tingling sensation that we should do something, that something could be done, but at the same time, fall back in the same old pattern of thinking, what's the point? it's not going to make a difference anyway. let's go back to our regularly-scheduled program. i get it. i do it all the time. in fact, living and working in hk, most of the times i'm so tired that my brain isn't even switched off by the time i step back through the front door and into my home. but at the same time, there's always a nagging sensation of emptiness, something that calls me to do something more.

remember how it was like to be young and to care about everything? i mean, literally, EVERYTHING. to have all these random ideas that you couldn't wait to write down in your notebook and try to execute, to care about all these causes like their fate would be a matter of life and death to you? why is it that now that we're older, nothing really matters that much to us anymore? what matters? getting off work at the right time, getting the right promotion, making dinner right...since when? since when did these non-issues become such great matters of consequence?

i'm gonna keep my readers updated, as to what my plans will be, how i will plan to execute this, and what kind of ideas i have. and, maybe, just maybe, i will start the kind of revolution i imagined in HK. the good kind.

keep in touch.