on motives

why do you come here?

is it because you know me, and care about me, personally, and want to know intimate details of my life?

or is it because you've read one or two entries of mine, and feel intrigued by my thoughts?

is it because you like me and you want to get to know me better?

or is it because you hate me, and want to find more and more reasons to by nit-picking on the things i say (or don't say)?

well, i'm sorry then, because today's entry probably won't satisfy most of your thirsts. see, i always try to write with a purpose, with a thought-provoking message that would apply to most of the developed population, and not just for me. but today, i can't. today, i'm drunk on emotions, and i feel broken and hurt, and that i need a little more than just some chocolate or a chat with God to fix my shattered heart.

do you ever wonder how many hearts you've broken? there is this quote on One Tree Hill, that i can't be bothered to dig up again, that talk about being in the background of someone's picture. ever wondered how many of those pictures we've been in? how much impact we've made on someone else's life without giving any thought to it at all? ever thought about how something you said or the way you dismissed someone while busy at work could keep them up all night, crying themselves to sleep, wishing that they'd never lived?

i highly encourage you to think about it then. sometimes, the things we say, the things we don't mean, make the biggest impact of all.