on the middle finger

you know, being a teacher, it really restricts me on the stuff i can let loose about on my facebook. it really drives me nuts sometimes, how i have to keep up this public image of myself, when inside, i want to be the angry, bitter, and sometimes vulgar and REAL breathing, feeling, human being that i am.

let's face it - it hasn't been a sunny year for me. work has been busy and stressful, i've had deaths in the family, and bs upon bs to deal with, not to mention my best friend/maid of honour giving me the biggest headache to date of all. but i've always been told what the root of all the problems were - i'm too weak. too caring. want too much to please others, try to hard. too serious.

well then, you asked for it.

feel my wrath, and feel what it's like to be completely frozen. out of my world, out of my life. i DON'T forgive you. and you don't deserve having me. not today, and possibly, not ever.

here's to the middle finger.